After a stressful time going through the motions of realizing that I was unhappy at work, the process associated with finding the right job and all the emotions associated with leaving my workplace of more than seven years and all the relationships I had developed over that time, I was ready to press the ‘reset button.’ I was feeling tired, emotionally labile and anxious partly because of the whole process and partly because of the unknown road ahead. I had my career path set 13 years ago when I decided to study to become a pharmacist and believed at that time it would serve me for the rest of my working life. After all, a single career lifetime is all my family had ever known. My dad left his home on the greek island of Donoussa to begin his carpentry apprenticeship in Athens at the age of 11 and more than 50 years later, still works on-site and still has this amazing passion for the craft.
So here I am on the beach in Ungasan in Bali, sitting in a cave writing this entry with the sound of the fierce waves echoing within and the foamy sea water lapping at my feet.
I had images of meditating, practicing yoga and eating according to my ‘Dharma.’ I probably imagined by the time I left I’d probably be levitating or at least telepathically moving objects. I probably needed to be staying in Ubud for that. Instead, I’ve been fine dining, meeting friends for drinks at some cool venues, ogling the amazing interiors of local venues (which are probably not locally owned) and indulging in glazed donuts and dim sum at breakfast! Oh well, it wasn’t quite the spiritual journey I expected although I believe you can have an awesome experience here. I probably should have stayed in a share house in Ubud rather than the W hotel in Seminyak and Banyan Tree in Ungasan (although secretly, I am really relishing all the luxury).
At day five though, which happens to be my last here, something magical happens. As I sit here and write, a wave of relief washes over me as I realise that I have in fact achieved what I had come for in the first place;
The switch inside me has finally been reset.